An Update
8 Mar
Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post. I really appreciate all of your encouragement and insight. It’s comforting to know that I am not alone in my experiences.
The clouds are starting to clear – figuratively, not literally, since it has been raining for the last two days. What I mean is that I’m starting to feel at home in my own skin again. I felt surprisingly good on my 9 mile run this weekend and over the last couple of nights I have fallen asleep easily and slept all night long. After work most nights, I’m finding that I’m able to sit on the couch with my husband and enjoy his company while watching an un-interesting war documentary without losing my mind. In fact I’ve spent quite a bit of time on that couch over the last few days just taking it easy. I find it amazing that I am able to do this. Usually anxious thoughts would prevent me from taking time to rest and I’d feel guilty for being unproductive. As I’m coming out of this, I am realizing just how much my body and mind are needing to recharge. I’m also noticing just how much I have used running to relieve anxiety. I honestly feel a little bit like I’ve already run on days that I haven’t! Hard to explain, but it feels a little bit like those lingering endorphins you have throughout the day after you’ve had a good early morning run. Its so weird!
So what’s next with running? I’m not sure. I am supposed to be doing a half marathon in Tucson at the end of this month, but I have a feeling I will let that pass. We shall see. I don’t have any huge goals for running at the moment. I’m sure there will come a time when I’m ready to make some, but not today. I’m definitely going to keep running. But I’m talking it day to day.
I’m sorry for the lack of commenting on all your wonderful blogs. I hope to get caught up in the next few days. Have a wonderful week and happy running!
Glad to hear your spirits are up…hope it continues
I had the same kind of moment this weekend, when I got home I spent a bunch of time just lounging on the couch watching DVR and playing a board game with my hubby… and I was actually content doing that. I wasn’t antsy or agitated, feeling like I should be doing something else. It’s kind of nice.
I’m so glad you’re letting your body and mind recharge. HUGS to you!
Glad to hear things are better!
glad you are feeling better! i have the same problem when trying to relax… i start feeling lazy/worthless and unproductive. feel free to share any secrets!
I’m glad you’re feeling better! Keep it up.
I hope that everything is getting better for you! Miss you out here in blog land!
it’s good to listen to your body when it’s telling you to rest. At the same time, just knowing running is a stress reliever helps. sometimes when i’m frustrated or don’t know what else to do, i’ll grab the dog and head out for a few easy miles. And as far as marathon training, if your heart’s really not in it, the training will be far too difficult and not rewarding. Hang in there. Not an easy decision to make. Perhaps running the half would be good for you just as a baseline race. Hang in there!